hmm.. i dunno wat to write.. thus i'll jus post one of my latest photo shot... Its taken in Jurong Island.. nice eh? about sunrise time.. but too bad.. its too cloudy.. cant catch the nice sunrise... hmm.. abit blur cus the platform where im taking shots is shaking!! about 9-10 storey high... and worst.. WITHOUT Safety harness!!!
the bbq.. the "last gathering".. hai. i inverted it as i believe it wont be the last.. but still somehow it might really be the last gathering where almost about 20+ people attended.. hai.. joanna didnt come for the gathering.. its really been a long time since i last met her...can come as she gotta work.. so is ym, si yuen, jing kai and others.. hai.. on the way there had some nice chats with david, ranging from games to studies etc.. was really trying to calm myself down there.. really feeling kinda emotional... where all the feelings gushing up.. but well manage to maintain.. so far so good.. hmm.. had bbq, chit chatting around.. drinking around.. had a few mouths of vanilla vodka but didnt like it.. face instantly shoot red but bluff others due to hot from the bbq pit.. really nice to see them smile when jokes are cracked.. especially emily and joanne.. hardly ever see them smile nowadays.. everything was fine until cutting of cakes and blowing of candles..david left first.. and this spark of some droplets form in my eyes.. ok i controlled.. but when i keep thinking about it will be damn long to see people like david, fadhli whom where going to army.. joanna worst.. she's going overseas for further studies.. dun think will even get to see her... and such missing thoughts are stir up my feelings and eventually droplets fall of my eyes when they started to go home one by one.. oh man... really dun feel so gd man.. and kinda embrassing for a guy to drop some water from the eyes.. infront of everyone.. gosh.. but i jus simply cant control it.. really miss the days to the core man.. hai...
then the election.. decided to run for the election.. but was really suprised when the cp started to jus grab the top rankings to go for election.. hai.. there goes my chance of being elected.. but somehow i still go for a try.. then many fellow club members were really condemning such acts as in grabing top rankings.. so am i, condemning such act.. but worst.. hai... something happen and kinda caught me in dilema between my principles and getting pass the elections.. i dunno.. but i jus wanns say sorry to fellow club members.. i dunno why but i feel super damn lousy... somehow like "betraying" the club members who were running for the election... hai.. really sorry.. i jus dunno how to stop this thing.. its kinda beyong my control.. feeling so guilty.. gosh... hai... im lost.. really lost..
