oh well.. its been a long time since i ever wrote something down.. perhaps the possible reasons could be busy with NS and maybe isnt anything happy to write about.. sighz.. past few months.. few ups and uncountable downs.. sighz.... finally im outta trainee life.. thats one big up.. recently quite bad.. unknowingly kinda picked up drinking.. really bad.. but sometimes.. cant help it... the feeling or perhaps the effect of alcohol.. can make one thinks more optimitistic and think less about the bad.. sighz.. sometimes... really cant understand why can feeling jus "poof" gone at an instant... is it something that one had done wrong?? why is all i could say and think off..... drink and drink and drink.. despite that face could easily turn burning red.. how i wish i could stop.. but i see no point.. except for monetory factor and health factor.. this two factor... jus kinda feel that it isnt good enough for me to stop.. even more now that i have my kakis.. hence all i can do is jus stand up and raise for this phase that i had thought off "down with sorrows... drunk till tomorrow..." Cheers!!
