after living as an adult for slightly more than a month.. it seems to me that nothing more than the usual stuff is happening around.. but some thinking seems to be changed... started to think of saving money seriously this time round... actually got physchoed to open a saving account from citibank.. partly due to that the interest rate is high.. trying to force myself that the money there must be stationary and not to be touched.. well... can possible be considered as "lao po ben"....
strange... i wonder.. does the feeling of lonliness grows together with age... i kept feeling quite alone most of the times... sometimes its that i had something to share.. for a moment i not sure whom i can share with... afraid that if it would it be misinterpreted negatively... or could have said something wrong.. hence i'll jus drop the idea.. moreover.. every now and then, i'll jus keep checking my hp if there's any msg or miss call... when i see that there isnt and call or msg.. somehow.. i feel abit... well.. i'll jus sighz... the frequency seems to be increasing.. but if there's a msg, super delighted i am.. even if its jus a simple forward msg.. and one bad thing is that.. the thought of going back to drinking.. whenever i had nothing to be occupied with, i'll keep thinking about going for drink... am i sorta addicted..?? well.. totally no idea.. hahaha sounds like self pity(ing).. nah.. not really though.. jus wanna pour something out... else somehow feel very vex... another new week.. maybe it be a better week.. for me and everyone... Cheers~~
again almost a month since last entry... a recap of some significant events that happened so far.. well.. of course.. the very first is me birthday.. though it might be late now but still wanna sincerely thank me pal who had fork out some time to attend this party despite their busy scheduel.. hmm.. enjoyed much much that day but suffered much much more after that.. hmm... quite bad that i damaged my gastric due to excessive drinking without filling up my stomach.. stupid and silly move but sometimes jus cant help it.. hmm.. how should i phrase it.. maybe its the kick that ur brain dun function and u act base on how ur heart feels... lucky after i asked around.. i realise that my heart is not that bad.. had not done any bad stuff.. haha lucky me.. but well.. i think i splurted out somethings that not meant to say... that caused a butterfly effect.. or perhaps not really to the affected ones but to me... gosh.. i really dunno how to answer thoroughly for it.. even though they said their fine and understands it.. but me can help it but to keep apologising in my heart to them.. and gosh... there goes my image... after which.. became bed ridden for close to 4 days.. and stuck with semi solid food for near 1.5 weeks.. gosh... alcohol do have "deadly" effect eh.. this kinda marks the end of me 21st celebration.. and guess im afraid of alcohol for a while.. but not for long..
after the recovery.. or in the recovering state.. manage to catch 2 movies.. flashpoint and 881.. both were nice shows and of course 881 being soooo touching that had caused me drop a few drops of tears... unfortunately.. a female friend of mine happend to see it... gosh.. how unsightly and unlucky it would be for me.. letting a lady seeing such a situation.. very very embrassing eh... haha oh well... lucky for me... i think that she had forgotten about it by now...
upcoming month would be a month where im prepared to be broke... fasting from luxurious delicacies to prepare for nice nice gifts.. and of course this time round i have my medicine prepared and learnt a lesson... to eat tons of food before drinking.. shall i get my "revenge"? or shall i be a saint and refrain from the TRUE HEART feeling...... Cheers...
*PS*Scarborough Fair gives a very melancholy rythem isnt it... such a nice song..
