somehow.. its almost took me a month to see some light... past few weeks.. experienced tremendous pains within.. the worst pain one can get is where pain is within ur mind and heart, not physically... hardly any medication available... not only that... had made numerous mistakes and wrongdoings out of anger, anguish and despair.. seeked forgivness and understanding... had been paying visits to the beach through jogging and cycling.. this is the only therapy that came to the mind... spent some time listening to the peaceful melody of the waves.. enjoying the sea breeze... looking up upon the sky... done alot of reflecting... most of the time apologising and regretting... and trying to get some thoughts straightened out... still trying hard to let go of something... however this feeling of lonliness is terrible... nevertheless... things are somehow better now... but couldn't get rid of the feeling that many people around hated me... well.. just hope that time do heals... and not to forget.. sincerely thank the only two kind souls, other that my family, who responded to my silent and desperate call for help... your hands had reached me in time... without you two.. i wouldnt know wat would have happened.. perhaps........
