woah... finally able to hve some calm time to record down my thoughts.. well.. kinda many events happened around this period of time.. hmm.. start of on how i spent aug 4.. well.. on the night of aug 3.. some greetings came in.. and of course on the special day itself some came in too.. was really glad to receive them.. i replied each and every of those msges sincerely thanking them.. doesnt take the greetings for granted.. its really great that friends remembered your birthday somehow.. to me.. by remembering bdays kinda shows your're impt or significant to them.. but i dun really mean that if dun remember means otherwise.. but sadly that week was a super down week.. many sad events happened.. tons of quarrels revolving around me but most of them doesnt involves me.. sick of it.. darn sick of it.. and also gotten some malign, provoked, pissed off... was so pissed till i jus wanna get away from people and jus having quiet moment.. on the aug 4 itself.. i spent my day enduring inconsiderate acts and freaking scheming selfish attitudes.. rushing experiment.. eating lunch alone.. waiting for greetings occasionally.. washing apparatus.. walked around challenger which eventually become my hang out if im alone... took bus 39 home as the bus had some nice memories... walked around the sugei api api and sat there to gaze at the sea for a moment before i went home at around 8 but jus yet to see both of them back home... damn....... and finally they came back home and cut the cake in 10 mins and thats it.. end of my my big day.. haha well.. didnt expect much happenings for that day though.. as usual... but quite sad.. almost all of my poly friends forgotten that day... was kinda slightly feeling down cus of it.. but well didnt blame them.. either busy with SIP, tons of projects or jus simply the list of bdays for asc was wrongly entered... but well eventually friends from asc knew about it and sent belated greetings and combined birthday cakes.. really appreciated them much... hehe thanks pals.. hmm... really wanna thank all my friends for the nice greetings, gifts... thank you thank you...
hmmm...lately my life quite bad.. seriously something wrong.. tons of bad things keep happening around me.. be it friends or family or me... really feel darn sad about it.. i wanted to help but i dunno how to.. wanted to send them some word of console.. but i jus dunno how to start and afraid that might make things worst... feel darn helpless.. sighz.. utterly helpless being...in addition.. i hve to endure senseless acts of selfishness, inconsiderate, scheming... i cant believe a friend can do to such things.. really make me sad.. mad.. dissapointed.. and i hate it.. by prolonged exposure and adapting to such actions and environment... i feel that my beliefs and characters starting to change negatively and i freakingly hate it... i used to trust friends that they will spare thoughts for each other, helping each other without anything in return, trust that every word they speak is of truth... but now wat i experiencing seems to be the opp... i may sounds kinda extreme but well... i dunno.. perhaps wat i feel is true or perhaps jus simply kinda too sensative.... bah.. but heck.. im jus utterly sick of it... sighz.. but of course not all friends are like this... a whole alot of them made me feel glad to hve them as friends.... fortunately my sip/fyp gonna end soon.. hopefully when sch terms starts again.. things will turn out better then now...
oh well... to all my troubled friends... when things turns out bad.. face it, endure it, somehow, eventually things will turn out well...
